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      The following is on my About page, but some have been asking how this all happened. So here is my little story. Tbird US Navy 1983 – 1990 E-6 HadIt.com the website domain registered Jan 20, 1997 the domain is registered and paid for through Jan 21, 2023 at which time I plan to register it for another 15 years Lord willing and the creek don't rise. I guess the best place to start is Jan 1991; I had gotten out of the navy Dec 1990. At my separation seminar, there was a DAV rep Jim Milton he told us to bring our medical records in and he would look through them for us and let us know if we should file a claim with the VA. Well, bless his heart, he opened my medical file, reads the first insert, looks me straight in the eye, and says you will be 50% for the rest of your life and he would file the claim for me. 50% was for surgery I had in the service. True to his word he met with me and talked with me for a long time filled out my paper work and urged me to file for PTSD. 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I spent a lot of time on those benches watching the squirrels they gathered their nuts and I gathered mine :) So I'm thinking I could put a little handbook together print it out and hand it out at the VA. Or perhaps fliers. Still formulating, time goes by, 1994/1995 I am being treated for PTSD regularly and doing and feeling much better and I go to work for a company as a marketing systems analyst and I discover the internet. Well let me tell you that was perhaps one of the most significant life changing events I have ever experienced. And I might add finally a positive one :) It seemed only natural to me that surely there must be a website that contained all the knowledge I wanted, well as it turned out not so much, lots of stuff but I wanted to get straight to the claims information and there was a lot of stuff to wade through to get to it. So taking my lesson from the squirrels earlier I started to gather, gather, gather…and learn HTML and work as a marketing systems analyst and work my claim. 1996/1997 major PTSD cork blows and unemployed. Working my claim, working the website. 20 Jan 1997 register HadIt.com domain name right after getting off the phone with the VA and saying I've had it with this. As fate would have it the old DAV board goes down just as mine opens up and folks start to wander in. So HadIt.com has two main components the website which supports the discussion board with links, articles, research resources etc. The website starts to grow, I can't tell you how many times I had to switch servers for space and features. I continue on a downward trend and in 1998 ended up back home in St Louis living in my sisters basement in therapy and working it, I swear I would have swung a dead chicken around my head at midnight naked if I thought it would have helped. The website continued to do great during this time, I just stayed in the basement bought new software, new books, and learned how to make things work and I continued to use this knowledge to make HadIt.com better. My 100% finally came through from the VA and I had a friend who is an advocate who helped me thru my SSDI claim, he was literally at my side thru the entire process and that came through for me. My therapist and sister continued to try and get me to leave the basement, but to no avail. At some point in 1998 or 1999 I put a counter on the website and was shocked to discover how many visitors we were getting. Time goes by my sister gets married and I move from the basement to the upstairs, there is much celebration that Aunt T is living in the light again. More time goes by and I settle into my life in St Louis and spend more time on the site trying new things, finding more information. 2003 I buy my own home VA loan. For years now I have just considered HadIt.com my job and I get up every morning go to the office and work for several hours, take an afternoon break and see where the rest of day takes me. I have a place in the office to use the computer and a comfortable to place to read journals and articles and take notes. Blah, blah, blah so that is my story and HadIt.com's intertwined.
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  1. hedgey added an answer to a question Just Looked At The Notes From The Comp & Pen For Ibs   


    I cannot express how much your words of support mean to me. It's like having a big ol' life raft of comrades pull me out of the water after the ship went down. A life raft with truly good buddies and complete with loads of rations and fresh water. Plus a box of flares and a solar satellite radio. You have thrown me life lines (that is not too strong a phrase, believe me.)

    I have placed a call to my Gastroenterologist and will talk to her today or tomorrow. She's always been very compassionate and helpful, so I'm sure she will write a statement, complete with citations of medical findings.

    The DBQ she wrote for me is very strongly worded and includes the DX codes for PTSD, MDD, OCD and GAD. In my records, she has repeatedly noted that my IBS is worse when I'm stressed, etc. So I feel confident that I will have the best possible support in that respect.

    Thank you so much, again. My dear spouse thanks you too - I've been like a caged puma for the last 24 hours!!
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  2. hedgey added an answer to a question Just Looked At The Notes From The Comp & Pen For Ibs   

    Thanks, man, I appreciate the support. I freaked and came here first. As always, there's someone here who "hears" me.

    I'm much calmer now (thanks to lorazepam and some time in the dark). It's not the first claim I've ever had denied, but it always hurts. It always feels so dang personal.
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  3. hedgey added a question in Compensation & Pension Exams   

    Just Looked At The Notes From The Comp & Pen For Ibs
    I'm so upset, I'm in tears. I didn't even look to see what the examiner wrote about my feet.

    Her conclusion about my Irritable Bowel was that it was less that likely that my IBS was related to my PTSD and she attached some medical finding that said there was no concrete evidence of comorbidity.

    She also said something about amplification of symptoms that could not be connected to my state of mental health.

    I understand what amplification of symptoms means - it means that she thinks I was overstating my distress. All I know is that I was sitting there with cramps that were making me sweat. My DH was there and chimed in that I suffered from "tummy trouble" constantly and that it was running our lives.

    So I had handed her my Gastroenterologist's DBQ that specifically stated the IBS was definitely caused or aggravated by my PTSD. I also came home and submitted that DBQ via IRIS because even though I had already submitted it back with my original claim, but the examiner didn't have it or see it in my records.

    My question is whether there is any point in asking my Gastroenterologist to write a statement for me. He already filled out the DBQ, and the VA has requested my records.

    But is there any hope? I have always gleaned that whatever the C&P examiner says goes, never mind that they see you for 45 minutes out of your life and they are a NP at best. Is there any hope at all that the VA might actually take the word of my MD - specialist??

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  4. hedgey added an answer to a question What To Expect At C&p For Irritable Bowel Syndrome   

    Hi all,

    I survived! Y'all were right, the examiner did not do any physical examination at all. It was good advice to bring my copies of the DBQ with me - there was no sign of them in my file. The examiner took my copy that had been completed by a gastroenterologist and used it as a guide to fill out the questionaire she was doing as part of my exam.

    I don't know how it went, but my private doctor made it very clear on the DBQ that my IBS was very much related to my PTSD anxiety and stress. Hopefully that will make it simple for the VA to grant at least Service Connection.

    IBS is awful and very dibilitating. I have also been told that it can be disasterous for your health. If I have a condition that might easily lead to a rupture and/or death, and the medical experts see a connection to PTSD, then it's important to me that the VA sees it as a service-connected (secondary) condition too.

    My gastro said that hospitalization is likely on my horizon... so it's important to me that my IBS be service connected.
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  5. hedgey added an answer to a question Comp & Pen And Pain Killers...   

    Hi everyone,

    Well, I got through the comp & pen okay. I think it went as well as I could hope. It was good that I brought my copies of the DBQ's.

    The examiner did not have a copy of the DBQ my podiatrist had submitted, nor did the file contain any of my podiatrist's records. I gave the examiner a copy of my podiatry DBQ as well as a statement that my podiatrist had written for me the week before.

    What makes me think it went fairly well was that the examiner was very gentle with my feet. Rather than the thumping and yanking I'd experienced from examiners in the past, she was very slow and gentle, no trying to force me to exceed ROM beyond pain, etc.

    She went by my podiatrist's DBQ while filling out the DBQ for the examination - which is what the examination was all about. She just filled out an electronic DBQ, mostly just copying what my podiatrist had said.

    I did tell her about the pain medication my private doctor had prescribed. She entered that I needed percocet everyday to manage the pain beyond the Cymbalta and Naproxin the VA prescribed.

    If anyone is wondering why I want an increase to conditions that are already service-connected, especially since I'm already TDIU, it's because I don't trust the future VA to continue providing care for non-SC conditions. While I have "residual pain in foot" service connection, it's at only 10% each foot. There is no question that my condition has worsened and will continue to deteriorate. Someday soon I will no longer be able to ambulate. I want the VA to acknowledge the level of my disability accurately, especially if I will soon have to rely on VA care for mobility, etc.

    I hope I'm wrong, but I foresee a VA healthcare system that is limited by service-connection and by rating. I already need daily pain intervention, walk with a cane or a walker, and have a lot of trouble with stairs. I expect my ability to walk will be sharply limited within a few years.

    Like I said, I hope I'm wrong.
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  6. hedgey added an answer to a question Employment While Being 100 Tdiu   

    The only thing we can be absolutely sure of is that the VA is not interested in logic or the best care for the veteran.
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  7. hedgey added an answer to a question Is It True   

    Wasn't there something in the news last year about a Vet getting retro back to the 40's for an injury sustained in WWII?

    I've read that big retro checks have to be approved at more levels, so they might take longer.
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  8. hedgey added an answer to a question Comp & Pen And Pain Killers...   

    My VA primary care has never offered to send me to the pain clinic and when I asked about it, she blew me off. This was after telling her about getting percoset from my private primary. However, the nearest pain clinic is at the VAMC, in the city 75 miles from here. My VA primary knows about my PTSD and how much I try to avoid the VAMC, so maybe she thinks she's helping me.

    I really don't want to go to the VAMC, ever. It's making me physically sick knowing I have to go down there on Thursday to my Comp & Pen. :(

    Thanks for the advice. I'll tell the examiner about the percoset. It really makes sense. Besides, if I didn't it would be dishonest, and that's not what I want.

    I hate being afraid all the time.

    thanks for your help!
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  9. hedgey added an answer to a question What To Expect At C&p For Irritable Bowel Syndrome   

    Thanks J. I had my private Gastro specialist fill that out for me.

    I guess I should just expect the VA Examiner to pretty much do what my Gastro Doc does when I see her.... ask the pertinent questions and a tummy exam. They can't very well do any "scopes" because I haven't done any preparation or received orders to.

    I'll definitely be back to tell what happens.
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  10. hedgey added a question in (VA Claims Research) Veterans Affairs Claims and Benefits Research   

    Comp & Pen And Pain Killers...
    I know this might belong in the C&P forum, but the question involves painkillers and that seems to be a hot topic these days, so I figured it might be more general...

    I have a C&P this week, a two parter, and one is for an increase to my rating for the Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy in my feet. When I got rated back in 2009 for an increase and to make it bilateral, the examiner asked me how far I could walk and I replied not very far without having to stop... She said, "oh but you could walk a quarter mile, right? Just down the track at a school, right?" So I said, yeah, but I wouldn't enjoy it...

    So of course in my paperwork she said I could walke more than 1/4 mile unassisted. Well, anyway, I was just really grateful that they SC'd my 'other' foot as secondary to my original one foot injury, so I let it go. A quarter mile without stopping? Not in years, my dears.

    ANYWAY, I see a private podiatrist and private Primary Care. My podiatrist gives me shots occasionally, but she advised me to see my PC for oxycodene to help when the pain was very bad. She has experience with the VA and told me not to bother asking them for pain reliever beyond OTC stuff.

    So yes, my PC was more than willing to prescribe Percoset, first with 5/.325acetominiphen then with 7.25/.325. I only take it when the burning and pain is so bad I really can't take it. I've managed to make a script for 120 tablets last from January 14th until last week (going in today for new script).

    I did tell my VA Primary that I had the prescription, and it's in my records (at the lower dose).

    My question is this: Should I make a point of telling the C&P examiner that I'm taking Percoset to manage the pain? It seems like this should support the level of severity of the pain I'm living with, but the VA is quirky. I'm a bit afraid they might go all "the Vet is getting DRUGS from a private doctor!!! DRUGS!!!" Yeah, drugs that actually work, and that I take so sparingly that I still suffer (believe me, it's awful).

    What do you all think? Is doctor prescribed Percoset going to help my cause or should I just not mention it (unless asked, of course).

    Also, I use a cane every day, but have no callus to 'prove' it. Handwashing is one of my OCD compulsions, but then so is applying hand lotion. My paws are clean and softy-soft!!

    Well, wait, there is a small callus below my pinky ....

    I have to go wash my hands now.

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  11. hedgey added a question in Compensation & Pension Exams   

    What To Expect At C&p For Irritable Bowel Syndrome
    I've had IBS symptoms for years, and finally started complaining to my VA primary care about 4 years ago. I was embarrassed and ashamed and it took me a long time to even admit that I really had a problem and it wasn't just tummy-trouble. It actually took my daughter pointing out that I had 'tummy-trouble' every single day!

    Anyway, the VA sent me for tests for parasites, infections, a CT scan and a MRI plus I had a colonoscopy... all done by outside providers due to the distance from our rural area to the VAMC. All my PC would said in my records was "Impression: IBS". She gave me script for a common med. I kept coming back and she said I had to go to the Gastro guy at the VAMC. I said nope, not going to go sit in a crowded room full of guys to let a strange guy look at me.

    Meanwhile, Id also gone to my private primary care doc and she referred me to a female specialist who diagnosed IBS and said that it was extremely common that a person with PTSD would have stomach issues. She's tried me on a number of different prescriptions, none have worked well, but she's really trying to help.

    She did a DBQ for me and I submitted that with my claim (IBS as secondary to PTSD). I have a Comp & Pen this week and I'm extremely anxious about it (is anyone ever not anxious?).

    I'm afraid that I'll be manhandled by a stranger; that I'll have to drop my britches and ... I don't know.

    Will they want me to demonstrate my problem? In some ways that sounds like a funny joke, but I"m scared. Are they going to want to measure my hemmorhoids?

    Also, should I bring the drugs my private gastroenterologist has me taking? One of them is a controlled substance (something with atropine in it, for when the cramping is just too much). I'm worried they'll think I'm an addict or something, especially with the way the VA is all crazy about the painkiller situation :(

    Who can tell me what to expect, and what I can hopefully not expect?

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  12. hedgey added an answer to a question Thought Dbq's Were Supposed To Eliminate Need For C&p Exams   

    Thanks everyone for the encouragement, and the open arms.

    You know how it is when you haven't been around for a long time, and then it feels like you've been letting people down, then you feel awful about it, and don't know how to say you're sorry for being silent, and more time goes by, then more time goes by and you feel even worse and more stupid....

    Kinda gets you tongue-tied.

    I'm bringing my DBQ copies for sure. I submitted the release forms for the VA to obtain copies of my records from my doctors. Am I the only one who hits a wall when asking for records to be released directly to me?

    I went to my podiatrist last week and she wrote up a statement for me to hand the examiner to go along with the DBQ she did before. She's wonderful.

    Thanks again...
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  13. hedgey added a post in a topic Va Therapist Forced To Resign... Don't Know Why :(   

    Thank you all for the compassion and good advice. I feel like kicking over the traces, but I know that missing a C&P will just be the worst thing to do for myself, so I will be there. DH will be taking me and plans to stay with me the whole time (hope they don't fuss about that!!). We'll be getting there at least an hour ahead of the appointment time, just in case.

    As for my dear therapist.... It's hard to fire any government employee unless there's been counseling and bad performance, etc. paper trail in their records.

    BUT .. my VA psychiatrist (who is almost as upset as I am because she sees the turmoil all this has caused for so many patients) indicated that the issue was that my fantastic therapist was not playing by VA rules precisely. As in took the Vietnam Vet wednesday group off-site to the town park to fly kites. Good exposure and child-like fun. They made their own kites from sticks, string and newspapers, and they had a good time. Another time they went to a small local restaurant to celebrate a group member's birthday.

    Psychiatrist says that the VA goes spastic about providers "exceeding the scope of their duties". Un-authorized overtime for the provider, possible insurance issues. You get the picture.

    So here was a great provider, the ONLY one I ever met who personally suffered from PTSD and was able to find a way to live and manage it. A real human being who went above and beyond to help fellow vets. Instead of making a hero and holding them up as a model employee, there're charges, an investigation and .... oh hell.

    I'm trying to get in to see the VA therapist who was my therapist's intern. If she was mentored by best, I can't help but hope she might understand. If not, I'll start looking outside.

    Part of me knows I need the therapy, desperately. The other part of me feels like it's pointless.

    Thanks again, everyone. Hadit always helps.
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  14. hedgey added a topic in PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Claims   

    Va Therapist Forced To Resign... Don't Know Why :(
    Hi, everyone. I hope this isn't something that many people have experience because it's been hell, but maybe someone can say something that will help.

    I had been seeing the same VA therapist for years. I was among the first patients they had when they came to the VA, so we sort of "grew up" together - I mean a lot of our sessions were full of "isn't the VA crazy the way they do things?" Went every week and very rarely missed an appointment.

    So a couple of months ago I went to a session, all was as usual. Then I called scheduling the next day to change the next appointment because spouse had a conflicting appointment. Was told that my Therapist was on Admninstrative Leave.

    After weeks of asking questions and getting no answers, I was finally told at the beginning of the month that Therapist had resigned (been forced!). My VA psychiatrist can only say that she doesn't know anything about what happened, only that Therapist surely would not have left patients high and dry if there had been any alternative. Privacy & confidentiality prevent the VA from saying anything about the circumstances.

    So WTF. I was such a fool, wasn't I? I actually allowed myself to open up to someone, to reveal a lot of myself to someone, and the VA just steps in and they're gone.

    Yes, I know that this must be the same thing regardless of whether it's the VA or a private provider. I'm just lost and so damned depressed.

    I have a C&P next week and I don't give a flying fish about it. Do for a minute, get mad at the VA and want to rail and gnash my teeth and jump up and down. Then deflate and just don't care.

    The VA is supposed to fix me up with another therapist, but in this area they're severely short-staffed (good time to fire a provider - oops, I mean accept the resignation of a provider) and it will be weeks before I can see someone, unless I want to travel to the VAMC. Not.

    Sorry. I'm rambling. Thanks for reading. I'd say I'll be okay, but I'm starting to think that maybe I won't.

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  15. hedgey added a question in Compensation & Pension Exams   

    Thought Dbq's Were Supposed To Eliminate Need For C&p Exams
    Hi everyone. Haven't been here in so long. Haven't been online in a long time - just not up to much of anything these days. Funny how you think you'll be okay and start living "someday" but then you look up and "someday" was two years ago...

    So about the DBQ's. I thought if we got doctors to fill them out and submitted them, we'd be doing the VA a huge favor and saving them the cost of providing C&P exams.

    At least that was what my VSO thought and when I filed my claim for an increase to my rating for my feet, and to SC my irritable bowel as secondary to PTSD, I had my doctors fill out DBQ's. They faxed copies to the VARO and also gave me copies for my files.

    Yesterday I got a call from the VAMC (72 miles away) telling me that I have a two-hour C&P scheduled for next week. I'm very grateful that I was near the phone and picked it up.

    I'm a nervous wreck about it already. I'm not good at going to the big hospital (panic attack land for me) and well....

    Writing this has helped. I know I'm very lucky to have been scheduled, and even luckier that I happened to answer the phone so that I know about it. Also, I will have copies of the DBQ's in my hand to give the examiner. That's a good thing, right?

    Thanks, Hadit, for being my sounding board!

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